missing jimmys place party

i think i dying soon
this week..especially friday
asignment due...havent finish
mp3 better at least micheal said not bad...tv1..die...
i think i really not enough rest..already sick..
flu already a week still not recover but getting worst.
eat medicine untill impatient then give up already
this few day...my life is...building 9 18 or 9 22 and work and ih7
apparently sales now..i really want shopping la...
but..sigh...sien la...have to do work work work
pray faster over...i really think i cant tahan already
every final week also like that...suffering and suffering...
today plan go finish my mp3 at 8pm
7 someting maurice call me told me that jimmy place party
actualy donno whats party of that...apparently is jimmy place birthday
i havent awake that time...then i really dont feel going
then he said come fetch me now..i so nice person sure dont wan "sou heng"
then preparing change clothes he called back said already start
then i said nvm la..actualy very happy in heart...
first is at least got someone still remember me...second is i can continue my sleeping
ha ha..so sorry to elliot..give him big aeroplane because said want go lab but now still at home
hahah...so tire and sleepy man...abit faint somore...
first time ...got 5 miss called but i dint realiase untill alarm clock wake me up...
can see i really tired liao....

我是真的生气了

SORRY FOR THOSE DONNO CHINESE ONE..
HEHE...HAVE TO BALANCE ABIT...
不要把我当成是多余的
不要把我用来填补多余的时间
不要将多余的感情施舍给我, 因为这样我只会更难过
如果再不拿出真心来
不要埋怨我的无情
因为这个是你自找的
我拿心对你,你当我是!@#$#%#%
这是最后的通告了

BLOG

actualy just wondering is blog = diary?
if yes, why allow everyone or your friend come and visit?
if not, so what should i post at here?
getting more ppl come and visit my blog because apparently is i "FORCE" my "FRIEND" link my blog
actualy my purpose just want my friend know how my life at here
is there consider wrong?
for me, i will happy if see my name in my friend blog link list because that mean we are buddy mah. then convenient for me to link back to my blog page
actualy, confuse already why am i here
sometime when u said something that even is in accidently way but stil hurt me
just found out i am so weak.so easy to get hurt
if my friend misunderstanding me
if my friend scolding me
if my friend said i very noisy (but i am i know)
if my firned said i .........
i so care about my friend opinion
but how about my family?
i never let them know more about me because dont wan they worry ( i know it is call selfish.but still)
dont know what s wrong with me tonight
is already 3am tomolo have to wake up at 8am somore
but just sad.....
like a bird without wings...
just bull shit...so dont bother about this journal.just bull shit.hehe

遗忘的语言

看了朋友的BLOG突然发觉原来自己很久也没写中文了
是不是退步了.无言, 以前总觉得自己写中文的时候比较有气质哦.哈哈
昔日几乎天天都在发帖子.
写些有的没的, 文笔有点迟钝了
其实也什么特别的, 只是心里有点复杂
到底是自己的问题还是它的
有色彩的生活比暗淡的生活耀眼吗?
其实都各有个的精彩不是吗
很多人都向我抱怨生活有多不满
每次我都笑笑, 同样的回答不知重复了多少遍
我的座右铭 "如果改变不了的事实就用乐观的眼光去看待去接受它"
这不是很好吗?如果硬要说妈妈不是女人可能吗?
就好象每个人有自己的选择,如果改变不了别人为什么不改变自己的心态和角度
或许他这样比较开心,或许这个才是他生命的全部,你算的了什么
只不过是用来填补他多余的时间
不要误会哦...我中学后就没为感情烦恼过了哦
别乱猜, 只是有些感触让我难过.

surprise night

preparing sleep
too tire and headache.
suddenly RING.....
find "jimmy"
god...what time now..wrong number leh...
want to scold already...i m so tired man
then start crying there
said she pregnant then her mother scold her now
oh god...how lucky i am
then i said u wrong number but how can i help u ?
she said is singaporean guy but dunno where is that guy now
then will call back me 3 min later
i help her to ask all the IH fren that i know and find out that guy
but no such guy and she din call back at last
hope she just kidding with me
nowaday ar...so lui sui...girl must smart abit mah...
haihhhhhhh

B.Melayu

long long ago dint touch BM but today...
as usual,
i take 4.30pm bus to dickson work.
then saw a gang ah pek..all take the yellow bag.
but this time different..they all speak melayu...and very loud somore.
then i just ignore because still got alot ppl there...
then suddenly got one ah pek come and asked me am i japanese girl?
then i said nope but malaysian
then they start speak melayu with me
shit man...i can listen but want i cakap ...
mati lo...but they keep on talking with me
so embrasing.
then feel lucky the bus reached.
but still cant stop them., one of their member seat with me
and keep asking this and that..
want i cakap melayu sumore
but finally reach dickson then i can leave the bus
wahaha..but so funny.
actualy bm is our national language leh
i think have to practice practice lo...
if not next time when back to msia really mati lo

** The Guy Who Love You **

The guy who love you , if he can't see you, will
try to make himself busy, for not to forget
about
you, but to prevent himself from wasting away.

The guy who love you can't tell you the reason
why
he loves you. He only knew that in his eyes,
you
are the only one.

The guy who love you will seldom praise you.
But
in his heart, you are the best and only he
knew it.

The guy who love you, will scold or complaint
if
you didn't reply his message because he
cares.

The guy who love you will only drop his tears
in
front of you. When you try to wipe his tears,
you
are touching his heart, the heart which beats
for
you.

The guy who love you , will remember every
word
you said; even if its by accident; and he will
use
the word always at the nick of time to remind
him
of you.

The guy who love you, will not give you any
promises that easily, because they don't want
to
break the promise they can't keep. They want
you
to believe him and they want to give you the
happiest and safest life ever after.

The guy who love you, always tell you not to
think
too much, because they have already plan it
for
you. He wants to give u the best life in the
future, he want to give you a suprise, belive
him
that he can do it.

The guy who love you, will go to airport to fetch
you. But he won't be carrying a bunch a rose
and
call you darling like what you expect. But he
will
carry your luggage and will notice that you
have
thinned.

The boy who love you, don't know that whether
he
should call you when you are angry, but he
will
sent a message to you after few hours, if you
ask
him why he call that late, he will said, when
you
are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But
when you calm down, my explanation will only
really works.

The boy who love you will always call you little
girl, but everytime he want to make a big
decision, he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who love you might not like the little
teddy bear present, but he will always place it
next to his bed.

The boy who love you, will listen quietly to you,
when you are mad, and when you finished, he
will
said, you still got class tomorrow, sleep
earlier.


GALs in crush, love, do you think the guy
who's
beside you do really love you? if yes, wish you
have the happiest day ever after.

from frenster bulletin yin yin posted~


is true but hard to find.
sigh..at least my bf not like these.

last 2 week for my uni

next week is mp3 and tv1 due
so will be very rush and busy
but happy with that because really learn a lot
hope can over asap
recently use webcam at oicq, so happy finally can use at uni
i think i prefer single.alot friend always said me nonsense girl.agree that
the thing is most near my grad most have to worry about job
really hope can work at taiwan.but now not only me myself have to think about him also
i really hope this relationship never start then i no need to take responsibility with it
see my friend so enjoy with their relationship., sometime so jelouse them
i dont want to be selfish person but i dont wan regret in future
sigh....see how first...ppl always said "suen dou qiu tao zi yin zhik" hope really can get very good decision for my future.

Sick Of The Life

tot today wan to do the mp3 recording
faint
the mini disc suck
even already charged still low bat
then come to disc memory full
but i was already lake
if walked back use 15 min then got to work later somore
so...fed up
so sick about asignment already
almost every weekend shooting
then weekday work sumore
cant even hang up with fren
they always call me have dinner or clubing but i just can give the same answer which is "cant make it"
that make me no matter how tire but still joining them if i got free time
blame who?
dont know so busy for what
from primary school until now no matter where i am still in busy life
last time back to msia also like that
then after i grad worst than now
no matter advertising line or production line i dont think will free than now
sigh....
think that to take a clerk job, or teacher job
maybe the pay is less but got a lot of free time and holiday
god....sick of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry my fren since cant make fun togather.

NICE VS Kan Chan

nowaday hard to find real nice person
most of the people will only think that how to get benefit from u
not like the children stage anymore
last time u can easier to believe people but now not
even the person treat u very nice now but u still have to becareful.
like everyone so KAN CHAN
but our bo lo zai
very very nice....
some time will faint of his nice.
he can help ppl format pc until whole night din slept no matter that fella close with him or not
he will fetch someone work no matter how late or how early
feel very lucky to know him in my end of semester at canberra.
sometime will feel very angry with him because of he too nice
ppl is like one...know u are nice then will take more and more advantage from u
why cant they just appreciate the nicer person?
no wonder nowaday everyone want to be kan chan
actualy angry because if fren appreciate ur help nvm.
but some of them just only take advantage from him
when no need to use him just ignore him
wa lao...what kind of person is that?
so hor..just wonder actualy should i become nice person or KAN CHAN?
know la...everyone will said that...
depend lo, as long as u wont regret mai ok lo..
but for me i will said that is depend on ur luck but not the situation
this is call YING MENG

breaking up week

dont know whats wrong with everyone.
most of my friend beside me broke up.
dont know why, but i will feel sad and scare
call kim talk about this topic then he said he consider is very nice guy now.
i just ignored.
i was wondering like how to define "nice"
i think....
the difinition for girl and guy are totally different.
for girl, i personally think that i want my bf no need always beside me but have to give me at least a call perday.then i always know where and how to find him when i need him.and i can always trust he is loyal to me.

for guy, maybe..
they will feel that buy the present to u ,u should feel touch.(har lo...have to depend whats ur present ok...if the present is useless for me is consider is watsing $ but still have to pretend happy...oh god)

second, when they fetching u sometime, u have to feel happiness. (well, is when they free.free mean excluding spenting time yum cha with their buddys)

for me...
i prefer 2 ppl togather but still got their own time but we have to know each other frends.
remember dont too close with each other frends.
because this is the main source where the gossip from and will affect your relationship.

but love is like that.onece u falling in love with someone u will getting more and more request.
u will hope ur partner give u more.then will quarrel all the time.these is ppl said the unstable stage. but once both of u quarrel untill sien then will consider is stable stage. ha ha...but u guys know..i got some of the friends pak tuo so long but never quarrel...
is that nice?
erm....its depend lo....

i really hope everyone can appreciate their relationship
u know....a relationship is hard to build and create one
u have to meet a right person in right timing is very hard.

but once a person who decide to break it will got a lot a lot excuse in oreder to get ppl support one.
like distance, characther, thinking....etc
please la....when u really love someone will u care about those problem??
its all BULL SHIT!!!

man is forgetable animal

tonight my fren call me crying.
scare me
remember we online from senior 1
that time all of us can online till morning the straight away to shool
that time we went to china chat room
then got internet relationship trend
we only 17 leh.easy fall in love
she met dark, that time we found out dark is bio one
but dark always denied infront her
but she really fall in love with dark
first love sumore...stupid
omg...lagi teruk is dark got gf that time but he still said love her wo..
see...man..is like that.
then tonight she call dark tot they can togather back because dark already broke with that gf
but then dark just told her only can treat her as sister
even dont have gf now also cannot change the feeling
see....man....horibble animal
sure she in deep hurt.
what can i said?advice?
do u think is usefull?i think is useless...
so just be good listener.
really cant believe man anymore.
when feel like u can do anything for u
but once the feel over ask u eat urself.
sigh..........poor girl.....poor woman............
thats y i prefer single life.....
no body can hurt u .......

Friends

actualy i quite lucky untill now.
especially in the friends part.
ya..last year got bad memory that make me never trust anyone anymore
i lost 2 ex best fren.
that time i really feel that cant depend on fren
since that 2 person make me cant believe anyone because is big deep hurt
but now everything i start to believe fate
fren or others for me is not everything but only family
i am the person easy angry easy forgive
but once i angry i will do a lot of stupid thing
the famouse is delete my contact list..
hehe...angry that person then dun wan see that person anymore mah
i am the forgiveness type mah..
so after angry few min i will forget liao
so these is i hate myself one
so easy to forgive ppl then i choose to delete that person then cant see him/her anymore then wont talk to them then wont forgive them but actualy is a bit bull shit
this is how stupid of my thinking
but everytime after i delete that person i will add back.this is call sampat
haha,the reason is i got something to ask or something to chat
but i so lucky,everytime i add back my fren they will approved back me.
see...my fren so patience and so nice.
got few ppl i cant count how many times i delete them but at the end they still in my list.
sometime think back will feel i like primary school kid.
hui yo...23 liao la...grow up abit la...
i think is my mum fault lo..
give me such character(blame somore..lolx..)
but honestly i really want to thanks all the fren still beside me lo
i know i'm bad temper but my fren still always forgive me
sometime think back really feel touch.
not everyone can so lucky can meet so nice fren
so dont jelouse me..haha.
i also wil help u guys pray will lucky like me.haha

how can he so nice

yesterday was mothers day but i still got to work
non stop 4 days working
worry about cant call my mum on time
luckily still rush that.
scare him forget to buy the present
maybe since i was here...
so far with my mum...
want to give her something
surprisingly he bought a DKNY watch to my mum..
god...is that too much?
so expensive man...
i feel bad..
want to pay half of it because is not his duty but mine
is my mum leh.
he reject and said he want treat my mum nice
call back my mum can feel that she was so happy
and i guess she like that present so much
as long as she happy i also happy

on the other hands, regarding applying pr
still cant make a best decision
dont know what i want
scare can get job but hope can use my own $$
$$ again...
start to hate it.
why everything also $$ problem..
sigh...life like these is not what i want

another bad day

today work again..is third day work
tot nothing special
shit...
today damn sui
wai wat....cry sumore.
thanks chong.
since chong and boss misunderstanding make me become piggy
so sien la...got think to resign that time
but just few min this dicision is disappear
sigh...
dont know what i writing now just want to FAT XIT
realy realy unhappy tonight.
then call kim...
haha...i think our relationship is change
not like last time quarrel and quarrel and also only quarrel
now we talk like friend
i prefer this feeling
can talk what i feel happy and diagree with him
last time always scare he will angry
now maybe he will angry but i dont care anymore
haha...but he is change
at least he wont so easier to angry now
today supposingly have to do my mp3 but just watse another day again
do nothing
weired person...
after supper at jimmys i gastrik
dont what to do later
but i think will just watching movie or playing mahjong
got keyboard already
but sound not nice lo
but only 70 included postage wo
what u expect leh.
haha..is like that lo...cheap product mah...

bla bla bla

just want to write somethin here first then can set the date mah

hui yo..just back from the seminar and dinner
2molo have to wake up early tim.
tire la...
2molo work whole day tim
sien la
talk 2molo la.

IH SYDNEY TRIP

do u guys know the residences office how stupid they are
got 2 weeks holiday but they plan the trip at this weekend
make me have to bring my laptop do work at there
this is call trip???
i tot is seminar.
do work and no mood to enjoy my trip except eat ..
but luckily the trip not that bad
we eat a lot a lot oyster.
eat at sydney tower and capital cruise
the worst part is after aquarium then we supposingly have go cruise by bus
but only 1 min late..
the bus was gone
shitt man...we got 2 bus...
the second bus is only 10 person in the bus the bus driver still dont want wait us.
make all of us have to walk 20 min to the jeti which is near opera house there.
oh ya..forget to say..
u know how cham i am..
when visit aquarium..i have to bring my mini disc to record the sound for the tuesday mp3 asignment...
so sad...really cannot enjoy the trip lo...
only work work work...
sigh...
we got only 2 day one night trip...
sat morning go and sunday back...
siao one lo...sat 6.45am gather at great room..
then since monday i got presentation then friday night whole night me and ivan do work at bo lo zai house without sleep..
then straight away go sydney.
then sunday have to wake up at 7am sumore...
god....everyone also know i cant live without sleep la...
sigh...
but one thing quite happy was saturday night when we met up with bo lo zai..
he fetch us to sydney casino main point is eat sushi..
but we still go walk walk at casino then i won $1...
hahaha....
after sushi is 13 scoops ice cream at darling harbour...
siao leh..haha..but 4 of us share la..
me, elliot, sonny and bo lo zai..
then i really beh tahan...
back to hotel ZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz
cant join bo lo zai them continue wet wet...
at first plan do work but at last sleep until next morning...
pai seh la..haha
but now i just pray 2molo presentation fai fai over then i can enjoy my laziness life again..haha...